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Ragamuffin Soul: Ragamuffin Soul »  My Vomit Filled Post About Jealousy.

  • Tyler Braun · 1 year ago
    word.
  • free to be me · 1 year ago
    Wow.....that is some truth. Thanks
  • Andy McMahon · 1 year ago
    yup.
  • Heidi Reed · 1 year ago
    This is precisely why you are in my Google reader. Honesty. Hard Core. In your face at any moment. And, Los, this is why you are raging across the blogosphere. I am happy for you and even more happy that you are convincing people globally to grow some big hairy balls and be real. Loved this post! Great job!!!
  • Elizabeth · 1 year ago
    I think Jesus must slap himself in the forehead when we aspire to be other people. Even other Godly people. I try to remind myself that God will never say to me, "I wish you'd been more like ______." Rather, He'll say, "Elizabeth, I've known you and loved you since before time began. I only made one of you, and there is no one else who has even been able to glorify me in your way. Stop wishing for his gifts. Her blessings. Their stories have little to do with yours. Yours is lovely enough on its own."

    That being said, I'm not saying I'd like to be you, Los. Just maybe have a cookout together or something. I've just put your family on my "If you could have anyone over for dinner list."
  • PastorT · 1 year ago
    It boggles my mind that there are people out there who would rate or compare one's life with a computer screen, or a blog, which is basically an online diary.
    But I don't look at it like high school. We're adults and most of the time we're talking about Jesus. Are they jealous that you brought more of the lost to Christ? Sorry, can't do it brother.
    I'm not competing with ya, I'm IN IT with ya and whatever WE can do, as an online COMMUNITY, to expand the Kingdom of God, I'm all over it. Anything else, I can do without.
  • Ruthie · 1 year ago
    I asked people for their favorite quote yesterday, this one seems to apply here:
    “Success is sweet, but it’s secret is sweat.”

    I love reading blogs of people who have "it" but I know "it" cost a lot and is a lot of hard work.

    I appreciate you, thanks for not lashing yourself daily on here, it would get really old. :)
  • Annie B (Kyoodled) · 1 year ago
    Wonderful food for thought. You always challenge me. Or make me laugh. Or both! Even better. Thanks.
  • Tracey · 1 year ago
    I so get this. Mainly on one side *blush*.

    I follow lots of papercrafter blogs (hey, it's my thing). It is so easy to get wrapped up in wishing you are as talented as so and so. Had as much free time as so and so. Had the opportunities like so and so. Knew the people so and so knows. Had the expendable income so and so has. For a time I seriously struggled with that (and even now from time to time).

    In the end I just had to delete a few blogs from my reader list and decide to be happy with myself and my talent. I had to accept that my style was different than others and that, just like in real life, I'm not exactly the most popular *wink*. I now watch blogs for what I can learn and how I can help.

    Also, like has been said, I've realized the work that goes into a great crafting blog... and that with 2 preschoolers a blog is not my priority.

    Thanks again Los. I need the reminder. It's about being the best me, not lusting over the best of someone else.
  • Gary Durbin · 1 year ago
    the more of an impact you make, the bigger the target on you gets. it's part of it. I'm sure there's definitely more positive reactions than negative. The negatives just seem to be louder.
  • whittakerwoman · 1 year ago
    "And we hold up our canvas in front of our webcams and show the world 25 seconds a day of who we are.
    And somehow that is translated as life."
    Great words!
    But I know all of you and am jealous of your blog ranking. :) H
  • human3rror · 1 year ago
    ok. i will. *boot!*
  • Jmom · 1 year ago
    Just watched a Rob Bell NOOMA video about this very subject tonight (Name). It is about knowing who we are, as we were created to be--not worrying about our how we stack up against our brother--being comfortable in our own skin...Good stuff.
  • Anne Jackson · 1 year ago
    i remember those days.
  • skiescolliiide · 1 year ago
    It's so true.

    Los you have a sick blog, awesome community, you right some killer posts, and you have an awesome heart for God.

    but you're not THAT cool.

    ;)
  • Steve Bradley · 1 year ago
    Great post -- think the post I wrote earlier today was much more vomit filled, though -- literally ;-)
  • Chris Chowdhury · 1 year ago
    Great post! Thanks for keeping us honest, Los.
  • Ace · 1 year ago
    thanks.
    i wasn't that popular in highschool, and I'm not that popular in blogosphere either...neither fact defines me. glad to hear your popularity doesn't define you either.
    your blog's great...keep up the good work.
  • Arnie · 1 year ago
    It’s really interesting where we chose to put emphasis on life these days. Myself and four other buddies of mine went over to this widows house this past Saturday morning and worked on her house for half a day, and we fixed her car and got it running again, repaired the roof from leaking, cut some trees down that were hanging over the house, and some other stuff. The funny thing is, this lady could give a “Rats Ass” about who’s who in anybodies world, she lost her husband several years ago to a terminal illness that drained them finically and left her with out a husband who should be there to take care of her basic needs! And where’s the Church been?? I’ll tell you, gathering together several times a week in a building to sing the song” If We Are The Body!!” and then leaving that building to do absolutely nothing! That sounds harsh, but it’s the truth. If people would spend more time helping other people they wouldn’t have time to worry about their own inadequacies or insecurities. Peace!
  • PastorT · 1 year ago
    Freakin awesome Arnie!!!! Amen to you!
  • AnnieBlogs · 1 year ago
    Sometimes I forget that 12 year old Annie and 28 year old Annie know each other really well. And though 28 may have a job, a car, an "adult" life, 12 still sometimes wants to be cool.

    I just remind myself that this is, after all, just blogging. Just online. And someday, if the internet dies, I'll still be me. And I'll still be loved.

    Love the blog, Carlos. No hatin' here, friend.
  • RyanJoy · 1 year ago
    I suffer from jealousitus to my friend. Its something Im working for for sure.
  • Jamsmooth · 1 year ago
    This is the best thing I've ever read on your blog.
  • betterthanblank · 1 year ago
    oh man you said @$$
  • tyler · 1 year ago
    so im not good at reading thru comments and seeing what other people think about writers think but i did like the reference to "big hairy balls" by Heidi. pretty awesome.

    and...

    the words of the post are good, awesome. i'm that guy wanting to be better, and i'm learning how to go out and live my own life rather than wishing i was living someone elses, but...the one thing that i can't get thru my head is why is the 'r' in "Resistance" capitalized?

    i may or may not lose sleep over this...
  • Danae · 1 year ago
    Very well put........
  • leoschmidt08 · 1 year ago
    The cool thing about blogs is that they can help us be transparent and authentic (even if a little jaded). You may show a few shades towards the happier side of your life, but you are being real and you are being yourself. That has to be tough for people to swallow or accept.

    Okay, enough rambling. I am going to go out and better... not better than you, but better than I was yesterday. :)
  • Gary Humble · 1 year ago
    Love it! Thanks for being real. I'm just another one of those worship leader dudes who reads your blog. But I'm quite happy not being you, though you're pretty cool.
  • Shifty · 1 year ago
    I'm no worship leader or employed by the church in any way - just a follower of my man Jesus who reads your blog cuz I dig the transparency.

    But you ain't all THAT - and I think I'm hearing you say you know that. I mean here's a dude who shaves his head cuz he's balding and wears a hat on a day that he didn't have time to shave.

    See? He's human - he has inadequacies like the rest of us. He may walk the line between cocky and confident (you're not THAT great of a storyteller) but he does know social marketing well - and like I said before - he stays transparent and that is what I love most about visiting this blog.

    Ya know what you're gonna get when ya come here. You're gonna get honesty. Openness. Truth. Painful realizations. And THAT makes for compelling reading anytime (story telling, formatting and spelling/grammar check aside).

    Thanks for the blog Los. I like it.
  • supersimbo · 1 year ago
    DUDE I LOVE YOU!
    if you were not reading damn emails like those you could get time to reply to my question about music/worship ministry set up stuff! I suffer from jealousy in many areas of life but never in the blog stuff, i joke that i am jealous of you & others like you BUT its just me hiding behind a man crush & deep down i know that if i had the balls to do what you do i could also command an audience this large. In the meantime, i will continue to be inspired and wonder what your bicep feels like!
  • jesse phillips · 1 year ago
    HELL YEAH, Los! Plus, we're all different parts of the body! We don't need two Los's. It's not about popularity, etc, as you said, it's about us working together as a body, rejoicing with those who rejoice and mourning with those who mourn.
  • emily · 1 year ago
    Good stuff......
  • Ben (of BenandJacq) · 1 year ago
    Thanks for this post, Los. Its so refreshing to see somebody recognizing that a good rank on technorati and some money flowing in from blog ads is not the point.

    Reminds me of the CS Lewis quote "Aim mainly at heaven and you get earth thrown in. Aim mainly at earth and you get neither."

    We could rewrite that "Aim for Jesus with your blog and you (may) get a high technorati ranking thrown in (but even if you don't, you get JESUS). Aim at a high technorati ranking with your blog and you get neither it nor Jesus, but just a blog that is bitter and attempts to hijack others' success."

    Just my thoughts on the matter. Oh, and you all should check out my blog. It's cooler than Carlos'. (I couldn't help myself)
  • The Wingnut · 1 year ago
    I find myself in this post. So much it hurts.

    When I was in grade school, I used to be mad at my friends because they weren't the "cool" people I though I should hang out with.

    I get jealous of our pastor because he is so wildly successful and I think I could be too.

    I could be the creative writer, or the gifted teacher. I could hang out with the popular kids.

    But then I read posts like this, and I am reminded that all of that is just a "chasing after the wind".

    Thank you for reminding me that the only thing standing in my way is me.


    wingnut
  • barnettblend · 1 year ago
    Very true... loved this post.
  • West · 1 year ago
    I would love to have a popular blog and have people think I'm cool...but I'm just not.

    My job is cool.....but I'm not...and I'm just not that interesting....
  • Joni · 1 year ago
    Yep. Blogoworld is definitely the cafeteria in high school. Maybe more so Junior High. And I've never wanted to be like you Los. No, that's not true. I do.
  • Robin Rane · 1 year ago
    Love it Los.
    When I see someone excel, I think: 'Wow, God is so awesome to create him/her with those amazing qualities!'
  • Shanda · 1 year ago
    Thanks...After years of trying to be cool, I'm finally cool with just being me.
  • jbstansel · 1 year ago
    As someone who is NEVER satisfied with who I am, I can say I totally understand what you are saying. A year ago this month I discovered I could sing, and I can honestly say this has been both the most interesting and miserable year I have probably ever had. Why can't we just be cool with who we are and what we've got? I led worship over the weekend at a youth/highschool event and it was recorded. I'll be getting those mp3s later on tonight and I am terrified of what I will hear; instead of being satisfied that we had an amazing two sessions of worship where the Spirit made His presence known, I am worried about my tone, pitch, and technique.

    That is so horribly backwards.

    Sometimes I like to imagine a church where people had no expectations except that Jesus will love us, God will Father us, and the Spirit will move, because I wonder if only then will I be able to stop this bullsh-t nonsense of comparing myself to other people and always being let down. And it's interesting that I have read and reread this comment twice now to make sure it sounds cool so that other people will read it and then want to read my stupid blog.

    Erg.
  • Terrace Crawford · 1 year ago
    good post. [not that they aren't all good]
  • michaelmanasseh · 1 year ago
    Well put, I couldn't agree more.
  • Matthew · 1 year ago
    Storyteller you are. Remember when you convinced me that Eddie had some kind of equilibrium problems and that is why he had to wear a helmet?
  • Shame · 1 year ago
    I had to close my facebook account more than a year ago because I realized that I was reading too much into and analyzing other people's lives. I guess I was jealous, but more importantly, I was just sad that my life wasn't as great as there's. I later read a blog that said people don't really put who they really are on Facebook and MySpace as much as they put who they want you to think they are. Not that they lie. But they definitely don't put the bad stuff. That made me feel a little better, but I know enough to know that I should stay away from social networking sites.
  • Dave © · 1 year ago
    I am a big fan of anyone who is genuinely attempting to submit to and serve our great God...and that definitely includes you, Los!

    Keep up the great work for HIM!!
  • brewster · 1 year ago
    YES! totally. Get off your ass and work it out. LOVE IT.

    It's Time (not the winans version)
  • juliebelle · 1 year ago
    this reminds me of Ben Folds' "One Angry Dwarf" song. It's brilliant, all nicely bundled up in 4 short minutes.
  • Crystal Renaud · 1 year ago
    i'm still mad that you can roll your rrrr's and i can't.