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kirsty — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 08:07:23 -0000

fuck you bitch im going home to shag my newwwwww girlfriend im pregnant bitch see ya 2mora love ya

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fifi trixibelle — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 08:05:42 -0000

the children will be fine their in their thirties!! ur mum is next to me she is my new partner!!! she loves me for me i dont have to play cops n robbers for her to love me. that was the only way i ever hit u was wen i was the cop!!! so dont make lies out on here. so tell ya mum bye urself shes busy at the moment if you get what i mean ;)

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kirsty — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 08:02:17 -0000

pl;ease dont goooooo i swear i wilol hang my self im sorry i didnt let you beat me up i will l;et you if you get bk with me i need you in my life to bring up the children and crown you the wife you have killed me and i have left a note on your bed on my side of the bed so you can rememba me darling i love you always tell my mum i love her byex

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fifi trixibelle — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 07:58:35 -0000

u can kill urself at least ur out my life then me and my new partner can live happily..yes thats right NEW PARTNER!!!! i didnt want to tell you cuz i new u wud be upset cuz i no how much u love me but we cant go on the way it used to be. u going out cheating every other night just aint on so i had to put a stop to it

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kirsty — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 07:55:53 -0000

please dont leave me you said that you wanted to be with me 4eva you said you would always look after me you mean evferything to me i used to wonder why you used to hit me i fort it was because you loved me and you always said sorry i trusted you im gna kill my self if you dnt be with me !!!!!

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fifi trixibelle — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 07:53:19 -0000

its not boredom ur just shit in bed!!!!! i cant help that i dont love u anymore its just the way its gotta be and u have got to deal with it. if you carry on with the calls at 3am i will have to dial 999 and have the police round ur house OK?

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kirsty — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 07:51:40 -0000

please stop making me out to be like that you said that you wanted to be with me yesterday and you always call me is it just bordem please stop messing my head up i just want you to love me

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fifi trixibelle — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 07:49:24 -0000

i met a girl called kirsty i cant stand her she embarasses me infornt of my friends by asking me out when she knows i dont swing that way. i just want her to leave me alone it feels like harrassment

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kirsty — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 07:45:23 -0000

i met a girl called fifi i fel in love with her she makes me cry every day and beats me up i cant take much more of it i just want her to be nice to me please god make her stop bulling me.

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fifi trixibelle — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 07:41:53 -0000

i hate ppl called kirsty

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ec — Sat, 24 May 2008 12:48:38 -0000

Just wanted to say thank you for posting this. I have been really struggling with this and wresting with God as this has seemed to shake my faith a little. Reading all of the comments have helped.

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Van Metschke — Sat, 24 May 2008 00:33:00 -0000

The last time I was pissed off at an answer God gave me?
What time is it right now?

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Paige — Fri, 23 May 2008 15:32:14 -0000

I get angry alot...

I volunteer for a rape crisis center and after a year of receiving late night phone calls to the crisis line from children, mothers, and scared young girls about the abuse that they've faced silently for years or the incidents that they can no longer deal with on their own, It still hits me like a wave every time. I get angry with God, and I feel that it's healthy. To not feel this extreme hurt and raw questioning in your core is somewhat unhealthy sounding to me. Not only do I get mad at God though, I sometimes get mad at other christians too. There are those who are always so quick to say "this has a plan" or "from this something GREAT will happen" I'm sorry, but you come tell a 13 year old girl that something great is going to come from the sexual assualt that she's experienced at the hand of her father for the past 5 years. I do belive that God has an ultimately perfect plan, but sometimes the things along the road to that plan are not so perfect. Sometimes you may never find the really good things in some situations, you just have to hope and trust that it will be reconcilled in some way or another. And those are the two virtues that I wish christians everywhere would be a little more authentic about admiting their difficulty.

Thanks los, for admitting the difficulty.

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Jenna — Fri, 23 May 2008 15:14:34 -0000

I've been trying to make sense of the Chapman tragedy for a day and a half now. I'm switching between angry and sad. Prayers, of course.

Last time I was really angry at God? News from my daughter's family that left me absolutely shocked... and so worried for my daughter. :(

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JustEnjoyHim/Judy — Fri, 23 May 2008 10:46:40 -0000

I still get angry at Him, but am trying to work through it. For giving me terminal cancer that will give me 5-9 more years of life (so my oncologist says). I get angry because this won't allow me to raise my 6 year old son to adulthood, a son who was adopted and has already lost his first mother.

I pray that the oncologist is wrong in her estimation because if she's not, I think it's totally unfair for my boy to experience the loss of a second mother. So I get angry, still. Not as angry as I did at first, but I do get angry.

I don't think it's wrong to get angry with God. I talked to a pastor about it and she said it's OK, that "God expects it." In my way of thinking, at least I'm still communicating with Him.

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Christy from IA — Fri, 23 May 2008 09:58:18 -0000

When I pulled my 9 month old child out of a tub after an accidental bathtub drowning. It's been 5 years...

At first, I didn't think I was mad at God. Only since March am I admitting that I am really pissed. My daughter lost her sister. My marriage is on strange ground lately. My family lost its innocence that morning. And I'm really mad about it.

The hardest thing is that I was responsible for her care that morning. As many times as people have told me that accidents happen, I cannot sleep at night. It's been a long time since I slept more than 3 hours at a stretch. I live in constant terror that something will happen to one of the surviving kids. It's a terrible way to parent.

Am I pissed? Yup, I am.

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emily — Fri, 23 May 2008 09:29:01 -0000

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts and neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9

This has given me comfort this past week as we struggle big time with our failed adoption. We have been waiting for a year to bring home two kids from Ethiopia and just last week the Lord said NO to the two that we felt so strongly were our own. It is so painful and we don't understand.

I do know that God is good all the time, this didn't fall through His hands and that He sees the big picture and my finite mind only sees the here and now. We are so confused, but I rest in the knowledge that He is sovereign and ultimately works all things for our good and His glory.

I can't even imagine the loss the Chapman family is going through. I definitely can't see an ounce of good today but trust that He is Lord of all. I am really praying for Will Frankiln! Again, can't imagine.

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lloyd owens — Fri, 23 May 2008 06:54:13 -0000

In dec of last year on Christmas day we found out we were pregnant and three days later we had a miscarraige. God not only said no, but we fasted and prayed and prayed some more and nothing... i cried like i had never cried before!!! But God is... today we are 12 weeks pregnant and I cant wait until Zoe gets here!!!!

I know this is supposed to be God said no, but we cant do a no without a yes, we never know who is reading or watching...

We have to keep going...

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Joni — Thu, 22 May 2008 23:04:38 -0000

When tragedies happen, I get mad at God (or maybe at the circumstances) because the non-Christians that know I follow Christ ask me why and I don't have an answer. I get pissed that it makes God look like a masochist to those who don't know him or care. And it takes a lot of resistance for me not to agree. And it makes me look like an idiot for following him. I know this world is not the be all and end all for us and to keep our eyes on the eternal but sometimes... And Maria is not lost. She's partying right now but that does not take away the ache in her family's hearts and arms. I hope they will have the privilege to grieve privately and to raise their fists if they need to. I'm so worried for the brother. I know a woman whose son hurt a sibling. How do you as a parent love them both?

And to be honest, I think instead of getting mad at God, I just sit and take it. Coming from my background, I'm just used to it.

Thanks for the therapy session Los. Send me the bill.

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Nick — Thu, 22 May 2008 23:03:21 -0000

The last time I was pissed off at an answer God gave me would fall into two different times but surrounding the same issue: #1 was when I felt Him call me out of full time ministry to plug in with a church plant as a volunteer, when they hired for the position I am "skilled" at they never even interviewed me...it was more of a surprise hire of a friend and former under study, which is understandable. However I am stuck in a job I hate and still volunteering. #2 Would be shortly after I left my former church the pastor decided to go off the deep end and sell the church for some weird reason. There was a huge split...I knew the truth of the whole situation, but was no longer in a position (since I left) to stop the pastor from deceiving the people. I prayed that God would stop him, but it was allowed to happen, now a ton of people got wounded and are either out of church or sitting in seat somewhere, talents going to waste!

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Nick — Thu, 22 May 2008 22:59:17 -0000

I was heartbroken at this news as well. Confused. Speechless. I read an entry from My Utmost for His Highest today for May 22, and it hit on this topic specifically, so it eased my mind a little, but as I look at my own children and family, it makes me realize they are just as vulnerable and I hate that! I look at S.C.Chapman and all that he has done for God, yet he and his family are not immune or given a free pass, therefore I know I don't "deserve" one either and it is scary. This situation is hard.

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The Domestic Goddess — Thu, 22 May 2008 22:48:43 -0000

I alternate between being humbled by the answer and being totally ticked off. My sons are both autistic, one has never spoken. It hurts so badly and yet it motivates me. I know I was chosen to be their mother for a reason and I know there is a plan for us, something I do not yet understand. But this week we reached critical mass and I was so angry. And then I was angry with myself for blaming God. And then I cried. And then I felt better. And today? Not angry.

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sarah — Thu, 22 May 2008 22:27:08 -0000

oh, i forgot to add my story about the time i was really pissed off at God.
man, i remember it so vividly... 2005/early 2006. i had recently gone to England to do an independent internship on a YWAM base in Derby (NOT a dts, mind you). i returned to the states and started working two mindless jobs to make money so i could hopefully go on an offical dts with YWAM. i applied and was accepted, so naturally i was pretty stoked.
however, not long after getting accepted, i got an email from the director dude saying basically that, in light of some information i gave him later (essentially that i had been battling an eating disorder for the past year and was struggling a little but was finally getting a handle on things), he had talked it over with the other leaders and decided that a dts wouldnt be the best thing for me at the time.
i was SO incredibly pissed. i yelled at God, i cried..i was so convinced the dts was exactly what i needed, and i was so mad at the disease that had kept me from my goals. i also knew that i had blown my one shot--they said i could reapply the following year, but i knew at that point i would have to have a job and be making some sort of income to pay off my student loans.
so that was it. finis.

ive never been so angry at God..or myself. it was a rough time, but fortunately through His grace, ive come to see it all in a new light. it took awhile to understand the "why", and sometimes i still dont get it, but i know He had my best interests in mind.

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Heidi Reed — Thu, 22 May 2008 22:26:49 -0000

When my baby died at 8 1/2 weeks gestation.
When I saw my motionless, heartbeatless, floating in fluid, tiny baby with bloated belly, hands and feet.
Why?
How?
Even though I asked You for this baby?
Even though you answered?
Why this?

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My family and I have been going through a storm of sorts. We adopted a beautiful little girl from Guatemala and brought her home in January 2007. In July 2007, our then-one-year-old daughter was diagnosed with a fatal disease and was given 2-3 years to live.

When we first found out about Carmen's diagnosis, I thought, "Wow, I guess God has a different plan for her and for us." I wasn't angry at all. I suppose that some might call it denial and perhaps it was.

But as the realities starting setting in and I realized that some of MY plans were going to be put on hold...the resentment, frustration and anger began to rise up within me.

Almost a year later, Carmen is still with us but is not doing well at all.

I still get angry but, at the same time, I have never EVER felt as close to God as I do now. He has used this horrible situation to expose my selfishness, to soften my heart about the pain that others endure, to be a comforter when others need help. (If you knew me at all, you would recognize the miracle in those last statements). I cannot possibly list the great things God is doing in us, through us, and around us. He has us in the palm of His almighty hands and never lets go!!! He has the Chapmans in the palm of His hands, too...and He's not gonna let them go either.

I believe that through this disasterous event, fresh awareness will be brought to the 140 million orphans around the world who need a home and need to be cared for and to be loved.

I am not suggesting that this is God's motivation for allowing this to happen. None of us know that. But He has promised us that He will work ALL Things for the good of those who are called according to His purposes.

One of my new favorite verses is Isaiah 41:10, which reads:

So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.